Well as it turns out, my aunt nanna isn’t going to go through with chemo. The doctors say that it would just be a waste of time, so they recommend that she doesn’t do it. There literally isn’t anything they can do. There was no warning, no symptoms.. Nothing. And there is nothing we can do to help her.



Found out that she’s not doing good either.. Her mother, who has altimers, is gonna stay with my aunt nana’s sister, who we call dickey sue, while she battles the cancer.. The doctors give her one year to live. One fucking year.. I don’t know if she’s strong enough to live that long. I’ll be in tech school within a year, and I can’t leave till I’m done. Which means I’m most likely gonna miss the funeral.


On a good note, I’ve passed the driving portion of my driver’s ed class.. Drove Monday, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday.. Yesterday I had class, and today is my last day. It wasn’t so bad really.. Didn’t wreck the car, followed the instructors instructions almost to the letter as they couldn’t figure out when to tell me where to go direction wise. Everything else was good.


On wed. I had a recruiter meeting, like I do every first wed of the month. That was alright. We played ultimate Frisbee. Unfortunately I had to play with a bunch of tall guys, and I can’t jump high, so my team lost.. But it was fun never the less. A great distraction. My ribs still hurt though..



I don’t know what to do anymore.. I’m still depressed from the blow of having my great grandmother die five days before my own birthday, then finding out that my other great grandmother has altimers early in the year, and now my aunt nanna has an incurable cancer in her body, with less than a year to live. Life is just a rockin’ my socks..



Just.. I donno.
~shado